David C. Hughes, Writer

“For the LORD your God will bless you in all your harvest and in all the work of your hands, and your JOY will be complete." –Deuteronomy 16:15

Archive for the tag “The search for joy”

The Epiphany of Joy, Introduction [1 of 2]

It’s all come down to this . . . after more than two years simmering in the crockpot of imagination, research, inspiration, and prayer, it’s my humble honor to serve to you the first course of The Epiphany of Joy.  I’m excited about posting the debut installment of this work-in-progress, and I’m even more excited to read your feedback, suggestions, and anecdotes to help move this project to formal release in book form (target for submission is June 2014).  As I prepped the first few chapters for draft release, this process reminded me of how Charles Dickens published his works, starting with Sketches by Boz in 1833.  Blogging provides a new twist on serialization, and I love that this work-in-progress is not solely my work, but our work.  God revealed this to me during a worship service at New River Fellowship a year ago: “This is your resource,” He said, meaning the people surrounding me, worshiping, giving their all.  Yes, you and I together will bring this book into a world sorely in need of a change of perspective.

So here’s the plan: once or twice a week I’ll post a quarter to a half of each chapter, starting with the first half of the Introduction today.  First and foremost, please enjoy each post.  Of course, you don’t have to respond to it, but I welcome your feedback, good, bad, or ugly.  More importantly, please share your thoughts, anecdotes, and experiences on the topic at hand, and let me know if you’re okay with me including your inputs in future chapters and revisions of the book.

Thanks to all of you who have already contributed to this project, whether it be through an interview, an email, a text, a comment on my blog page, a kind word, or your thoughts and prayers.  “The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.”

So without further ado, I present to you . . . . The Epiphany of Joy!

***********

THE EPIPHANY OF JOY

by

David C. Hughes

Introduction

[Installment 1 of 2]

. . .do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength. 

–Nehemiah 8:10

 

I shall be telling this with a sigh 

Somewhere ages and ages hence: 

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— 

I took the one less traveled by, 

And that has made all the difference.

–Robert Frost, “The Road Not Taken”

It happened January 2011 during a men’s retreat in Lake Fork, Texas.  God wrote a letter to me.  And the scales fell off my eyes . . . .

He followed up in June 2011 while on a business trip to Buffalo, New York.  God spoke to me.  And my world changed . . . .

A week later, while sparring with the devil in the shower, God whispered to me.  And things solidified . . . .

I was raised a child of the 60’s and 70’s, immersed in a middle-class, hard-working, country-boy environment.  Dad worked for IBM in Endicott, New York, the first of his immediate family to transition out of a blue-collar upbringing in southwestern Pennsylvania into the white-collar world of Big Blue.  I grew up in the rural town of Maine, New York, with two younger brothers and a baby sister in a 1200-square-foot ranch-style house.  The joke was our town contained more cows than people.  The smell, especially on stagnant mid-summer afternoons, testified to the verity of that claim.

My parents instilled in my siblings and me a strong family experience, a Catholic Church-based spiritual foundation, and a solid work ethic, demonstrating the lessons daily as we lived life together in that cozy three-bedroom avocado green house with one bathroom.  Thanks to my dad, I gained an appreciation for story-telling, walks in the woods, and being an involved parent.  And thanks to my first-generation Italian-American mom, I gained an appreciation for polka music, hard work, meticulousness, and talking with my hands!  Both of my parents came from humble and challenging backgrounds, and they used that experience to teach us love, family, and integrity.  They made (and, after 50 years of marriage, still make) a great team.

When I was in elementary school, Mom put a duster in my hand and showed me how to run the old Kirby upright with the olive green bag.  When I turned 12 or 13, Dad demonstrated the ins and outs of starting and using the simple but dependable Craftsman push mower to cut our half-acre, hilly lawn.  To this day I remember having to yank the cable off the spark plug to stop that beast.  I quickly learned what 15,000 volts feels like, and what it does to your hand muscles.  I took on babysitting jobs at age 13, started working for a family-owned department store and ice cream store at 16.  I maintained flower beds and lawns for the church and for neighbors, and I even helped a local dairy farmer harvest hay.  I learned the value of hard work, of responsibility, and of making and saving money.  There was no question I was going to continue my education straight out of high school into college, get a degree, and procure a good-paying job.

The joy of childhood filled my heart those days.  I spent hours playing in the basement and romping in the woods with my dad and my brothers.  I built plastic model airplanes, flew balsa wood radio controlled aircraft, and graduated to piloting full-scale sailplanes over the pasture-embossed hills of New York’s Southern Tier region.  I spent endless hours rebuilding lawnmowers found in junk heaps, playing with small engines, and riding motorcycles in the woods.  I tore down, cleaned up, and rebuilt a Honda CR125 dirt bike on the front porch with no maintenance manual and no previous experience with two-stroke engines.  I just rolled up my sleeves and got to work, and the engine started right up after I put it all back together without a part left over!

My brothers, sister, and I spent cold winter days building forts in the snow drifts, and frigid winter nights sledding in the darkness down quarter-mile long bobsled runs Dad built for us and the neighborhood kids.  I was happy in my creativity in junior and senior high school, enjoying drawing, writing, collecting butterflies, and producing a couple darned hilarious Super 8 movies.  And even as my dream of becoming an Air Force pilot crashed due to a stomach ulcer developed in my junior year, I still pursued my creative outlets as I began my post-high-school education in engineering.

But somewhere between my sophomore and junior years of college, boredom, upheaval, and discontent roared in and body slammed joy to the mat while working a co-op job in the structured and demanding environment of a tech company.  Another bleeding ulcer almost killed me.  I had my duodenum and a third of my stomach removed, and I caught a brief glimpse of the power and enticement of Demerol.  I read Stephen King’s The Talisman while in the hospital, and questioned deeply the path I struggled down.  At that moment I stood in Robert Frost’s yellow wood, at the divergence of the two roads, and I made a choice:  I took the one leading to the completion of my Bachelor’s Degree in Electrical Engineering and the start of a career in the military aircraft industry which lasted almost three decades.

Dissatisfaction with my job, double-mindedness about my vocation versus my avocation, a failed marriage, a slump into clinical depression, a hyperactive sensitivity to the size of my bank accounts, and a six-year loss of my voice came close to pinching out the flame of joy between fingers of despair and hopelessness.  Whatever joy I had left retreated to the dark corners of my memory, wide-eyed, shivering, waiting.  It darted out to celebrate my engagement and marriage to my second wife, the birth of our daughter, the first flight of the jet fighter I helped build.  Joy’s voice emerged occasionally to sing high harmony to the songs I made up for my daughter, and it listened with rapt attention to the stories we created and laughed about.  But somewhere along the way I’d all but left joy on the side of the road to die.

Thankfully, it didn’t . . . .

 

Copyright ©2013 by David C. Hughes

The Search for Joy: A Parable (2013-08-21 Daily)

THE SEARCH FOR JOY: A PARABLE

A man, moved by the state of his life and the world, set out to discover the meaning of joy.  “Where should I begin, Lord?” he asked.

“The Grove,” the Lord answered.

The man hopped a bus and rode it to the Fairfax District.  As the doors hissed open, loud music poured in from the Farmer’s Market.  The man cringed.  He stepped off the bus and stood on the fringe of the crowd engulfed by a heavy bass stomp and the raucous growl of an electric guitar badly in need of tuning.  People danced, shouted, surged with the rhythm.  He watched as one young woman clad in handmade cotton dress and topped with a cloche hat leaped from the crowd and weaved seductively in and out between the band members.  She writhed and gyrated and jerked and flailed, eyes toward heaven, tears streaming down her cheeks.  The electric guitar player doubled over his instrument, head pumping in synch with his hand.  The crowd surged, the volume transformed the music into more distortion than melody.  Hands waved, bodies jumped, voices screamed.  The man stood still, jaw set hard.  When the set finished, his ears rang.  “Where to now?” he asked, heading back to the bus stop.

“Venice Beach,” the Lord told him.

The bus staggered down Washington Boulevard through rush hour.  Unwashed bodies, the lurching vehicle, and the subtle odor of schwag unsettled him; he exited three blocks from the beach and walked to the boardwalk.  As the sun inched toward the Pacific, street vendors packed up their wares and tourists packed up their strollers.  Locals swam against the mob armed with beach chairs and surf boards.  The man sidestepped a vagrant crumpled against a palm tree.  Before he could edge by unnoticed, the vagrant rolled over and stared at him with dancing black eyes.  He laughed.  The man retched as the vagrant’s ripeness swept up his nostrils.  He escaped across the beach to the seaweed line and sat heavily in the cool sand. As he pulled off a shoe, his fingers stuck to a tar ball plastered to the bottom.  “Ugh!” he moaned.  Teeth clenched, he rubbed the sole with sand until de-tarred.

As the sun melted from neon orange to hot pink, the man watched a matted mongrel chasing sea gulls, children romping unfazed in the frigid water, surfers skinned in black wetsuits bobbing on the rolling gray swells.  He sighed, tried to relax.  A petit woman dressed in white chinos and fuchsia hoodie strolled barefoot through the sea foam with her Irish Setter.  She waved.  He nodded.  The sun ducked behind a purple line of clouds and shot out a crepuscular ragtime playing across the ocean’s keyboard.

A rustle to his right disrupted the moment: A thin man with wispy blond hair stopped three feet from him, his tanned face turned toward the sunset.  Thick sunglasses eclipsed a smile.  “Beautiful, isn’t it?” the thin man spoke, his voice as slight as his frame.  He lifted his long cane to the horizon and pointed.  “Just beautiful.”  The thin man spun around and strolled north up the beach, clearing the path in front of him with rhythmic sweeps of the cane.  The man watched until he disappeared into a clot of sunbathers and haze.  He rose, brushed the sand from his trousers.  “Where to now, Lord?”

“To bed,” the Lord spoke.  “Tomorrow, the mountains.”

Exhaustion suddenly swept over him and he relented.  “Yes, Lord.”  He picked up his shoes.  “To bed.”

The next morning dawned still and bright.  He ate a bagel, sipped orange juice, and stuffed a small backpack with water and snack bars.  He drove to the San Gabriels and parked at an Angeles National Forest trailhead.  Perhaps today, he thought.

The morning sun warmed his shoulders as he began to hike the gravelly dirt path through the thick chaparral.  He hiked for an hour then stopped to rehydrate on a wide outcropping overlooking the San Fernando Valley.  Below, the yellow-brown smog line trespassed into the mountains.  He breathed in the acrid scent of creosote and dried grass.  “How much longer, Lord?” he asked.  The Lord remained silent.  The man packed up his water bottle, shouldered his backpack, and continued up the slope.

Along the way he exchanged pleasantries with a young couple hiking the other direction, and grunted as their giddiness and laughter faded into the heavy brush behind him.  As he rounded the bend he stopped dead: a monster rattlesnake lay coiled before him, body writhing, tail a sudden maraca shattering the morning stillness.  The snake rose up, sinking its fangs into his thigh above the knee.  He yelped, fell backward.  The sting of the fangs was bad; the fire snaking its way up his thigh and torso moments later was worse.  “Help!” he cried.  He stood, hobbled in the direction of the giggling young couple.  He prayed they hadn’t gotten too far.

After five minutes a wave of dizziness swept over him.  His leg gave out and he fell hard onto his side. Gravel sliced into his elbow.  “Help!” he pleaded.  The young man emerged from the brush, sprinting toward him.  The young woman followed.  Neither was laughing.  Another wave of dizziness swept over him.  He groaned.  “God it burns!” The young man threw down his pack and yanked off his belt.  The young woman yelled into her cell phone.  The man screamed as the young man looped his belt around his thigh and cinched it.

He blacked out several times during the bumpy walkout strapped to a stretcher.  He didn’t remember most of the ambulance ride to Pasadena.  When he finally regained coherence, he found himself lying in a hospital bed, elbow bandaged, leg and head throbbing.  An elderly woman lay in the next bed, surrounded by a large group of people.  He caught glimpses of her before the nurse closed the blue curtain separating their beds: cotton hair plastered to the back of her head, white wrinkled face, sharp blue eyes set deep under a heavy brow.  And laughter like a school girl.  She chattered and waved bird-claw hands at the ends of tiny arms.  Tubes emerged from those arms and the backs of both hands, held in place with layers of tape which tugged at her translucent blue skin.  Another line entered her neck just under her right ear.  A folded wheelchair leaned against the wall at the foot of her bed.  The man frowned.

He dropped his head onto the pillow and fell back to sleep despite the lively crowd.  When he awoke, the curtain had been drawn back and the elderly woman lay on her bed looking at him.  She glowed.  “Well, there you are, young man.  Back from the dead.”  She guffawed.  “Whatever happened to you, my dear?”  She smiled and waited.

“Got bit by a snake,” he said.  His throat burned.

“A snake, huh?”  She winked.

“A big one too,” he said.  “Rattler.”

“Got bit by a snake.  Hmm.”  The room fell silent as the woman’s eyes focused on something behind him.  He instinctively glanced back.  A window, blinds drawn.  A chair in the corner.  Nothing else.  When he turned back she held something out to him.

“Here you go,” she said, smile broadening.  “You need to have this.”  She held out an old book, brown leather cover cracked from agelessness.  He hesitated.  “Go on,” she said.  “This’ll help.”

He took the book.  Ancient.  Worn.  Well-used.  “Help with what?” he asked.  The woman’s blue eyes twinkled.  She raised a trembling finger to her lips and winked again.  “Thank you,” he finally said.

She rolled over.  “Good to meet you.”  Within moments a hacking snore erupted from the old woman’s bed.  A wave of nausea and deep tiredness swept over him again.  He placed the book on his food tray and let himself be carried away into the dark dreamlessness of anti-venom and exhaustion.

He awoke to a melee exploding in his room.  He sat straight up.  The blue cover had been drawn across the room again, but the thin material did nothing to muffle the sounds of the crash team trying to revive the old woman.  After five minutes a voice emerged from the aftermath.  “Time of death: 3:16 AM.”

After his heart settled down and the wan-faced nurses poked in on him, he lay back and stared at the ceiling.  He reached for the food tray and picked up the book, stroking the leather cover.  “Thank you,” he whispered.  He cracked open the cover and began to read.

In the beginning God . . . .

The Lord smiled.

 

8/20/2013

Copyright © 2013, David C. Hughes

Post Navigation